Thank you G-d for my hearing so that I could hear my little beans heartbeat today.
Today I had my first real doctors appointment. Tons of blood given and tests submitted. Blood pressure is a bit low but it’s better than high. We met some amazing people from the receptionist who couldn’t be sweeter to the nurse, to the midwife, social worker and even a nutritionist. Today has been a very productive day for me and the Bean. It’s wonderful when professionals around you tell you that you are on a good track from your support to taking care of yourself. Granted, we are not completely prepared, after all this was a surprise pregnancy but we are well on our way to a good beginning.
It’s amazing to know that there is help and care for those of us that are not privileged to have health insurance. I am truly thankful for everything I have today. I am especially thankful that the Bean has been tested. Now we just hope for the best and wait for the results which should be evident in two weeks. Friday will bring us a new picture of the Bean. I’m thrilled.
Though we haven’t heard from the father in about 4 days now, we are keeping optimistic because we know we are in good Hands. Though everyone close to me seems angry with him, I am giving him space to make his own decision. I will not sway him into anything one way or the other. He is his own man and will make the best decision for himself at this moment in time. As for me? I have two lives to take the best care of I know how now, so that is my focus: keeping positive, working on stability, and being thankful for everything that I do have. We must remember to focus on the blessings not things that are lacking. Things that are lacking are there to teach and guide us in the right direction.
Today has been a wonderful day.
I know that all parents to be probably have the same wishes, fears, and hopes. The most prominent for me today is being able to be a good example for my child. I hope to be a strong role model who will inspire compassion, kindness, love, and respect towards this world and it’s inhabitants. I do not have any idea on how that will unfold but with a good heart, a better intent, and the watchful eye of G-d we’ll ensure an offspring we can all be proud of.
Sometimes I wish I could get a glimpse into the future. There are so many questions that swirl through my head. Does he love me? Does he not? Does he want us? Will he really be able to just leave us in the past? These are seemingly selfish questions but they are with The Bean first in mind. Will there be a father figure? Will I be able to do the job if there isn’t? What will I say in 13 years when the questions aren’t my own any more.
Sometimes I want to cut all ties. It would seem that it is the best for the both of us. The father I mean. He wants no part of it. There’s not acknowledgement of the pregnancy even. I am judging, I know. There is no way to know what his plans, thoughts, and wishes are. I know that he has fear, he has to. I know that he has questions of his own. This is why I am being patient as painful as it is. I am in total understanding that the way I deal with it isn’t the way any one else would. Nor should they. We are each our own. I know I have to be as understanding and kind as I can.
So here I am always at his beking call. Always a pushover for his needs and wants. Always looking for ways to appease him. You’d think life would have taught me by now that this is not the way to open anyones eyes. But as many hardships as I’ve had in life my heart grows bigger. Or perhaps it’s stupidity. All I know is that it’s not about me anymore. I want the best for The Bean.
So for the time being, I will go with the flow. I will see where life takes us. I can only hope this is the right way. I can only pray that with G-d by my side my fears will dissolve and I will look to the future with a happy heart, no matter where that takes us.
So they say that lemon and ginger is great for pregnancy nausea. They also say that probiotics are good for your gut n brain. Well look at this wonderfulness!
I am YUMMY!
Perhaps I am an oddity in this ever evolving world but I like things that … well, others simply EW. That includes things like sauerkraut, liver, and the like.
One of the things I remember stealing as a kid from my g-ma as she cooked were boiled beets. No salt, no pepper, just a beet and pop it in the mouth.
Now, living in America with all the amenities and luxuries she doesn’t cook much. And let’s face it, beets don’t exactly make a star appearance on the Food Network Channel. So I decided to venture out into the world of the great wide web to see if I can find something new and interesting that included the good ole beet. And I found it!
I have yet to try this but the ingredients sound simply amazing and oh-so-good for ya. And as a mom-to-bee I am, after all, growing a bean inside me too. By the way, did you know they are amazing for an expecting mother? It just keeps getting better and better, so give the beat a chance.
(found on simplyrecipes.com)
Moroccan Beet and Carrot Salad
Have you tried this? Any tips? Please share below. I look forward to chatting with you foodies.
What’s so Good About Beets?
Well aside from being delicious (I swear it!) there are a ton of benefits from vitamis to a good cleanse. Here are some more:
- Not that I need it but they say that beets are natures viagra because they contain lots of boron that helps in productions of human sex hormones.
- They have a ton of vitamins and minerals like A, B, C and folic acid. Beets are particularly beneficial to women whom are pregnant, as the vitamin B and iron are very beneficial to new growth cells during pregnancy and replenishing iron in the woman’s body.
- Beets help prevent cancer by detecting and removing abnormal cells before they become cancerous. The phytonutrients–proanthocyanidins–that gives beets their rich purplish-red hue has potent anti-cancer capabilities.
- They help lower blood pressure.
- Beets contain betaine that is found in some remedies for depression.
- They are great for anti inflammatory that help with the effects of aging and disease.
- They aid in purifying your blood.
- Beets help cleanse your liver.
Okay, now for a confession… I always loved beets but now I am IN love with them! So much goodness.