Thank you G-d for my hearing so that I could hear my little beans heartbeat today.
Today I had my first real doctors appointment. Tons of blood given and tests submitted. Blood pressure is a bit low but it’s better than high. We met some amazing people from the receptionist who couldn’t be sweeter to the nurse, to the midwife, social worker and even a nutritionist. Today has been a very productive day for me and the Bean. It’s wonderful when professionals around you tell you that you are on a good track from your support to taking care of yourself. Granted, we are not completely prepared, after all this was a surprise pregnancy but we are well on our way to a good beginning.
It’s amazing to know that there is help and care for those of us that are not privileged to have health insurance. I am truly thankful for everything I have today. I am especially thankful that the Bean has been tested. Now we just hope for the best and wait for the results which should be evident in two weeks. Friday will bring us a new picture of the Bean. I’m thrilled.
Though we haven’t heard from the father in about 4 days now, we are keeping optimistic because we know we are in good Hands. Though everyone close to me seems angry with him, I am giving him space to make his own decision. I will not sway him into anything one way or the other. He is his own man and will make the best decision for himself at this moment in time. As for me? I have two lives to take the best care of I know how now, so that is my focus: keeping positive, working on stability, and being thankful for everything that I do have. We must remember to focus on the blessings not things that are lacking. Things that are lacking are there to teach and guide us in the right direction.
Today has been a wonderful day.